When I see this now I can't help but thinking about the earthquake. But I actually made this last week and finished it Thursday, way before
the earthquake.
I was really excited to use t
he black and white fabric. I wanted to make something you might see at the MOMA. But when I got through with the black and white piecing I thought the world was spinning around and around. I thought I will never get these lines and dots to hold still.
I am not sure that I have now either.
But going with the idea of modern art and a tea cozy I decided to create the cup and saucer theme.
After I got through with it I wasn't really happy with her expression. She just looks confused.
I think fitting that there is a question mark on the side of her head. But there is also a yellow spiral which seems to me to show that she is going to use her imagination.
She is going to get out of the
RIGIDITY OF BLACK AND WHITE THINKING.
I understand this kind of thinking. When I get looped into the duality of two different opposing forces I find myself in the
SLOUGH OF DESPOND. I want the way I want things to be to match the way things are. I want the lines to be parallel...everything going in the same direction ...the way I want them to go.
when I get in this mode of thinking I stop treating people as humans. I start resorting to the more efficient method of treating them like machines.
I have to stop my self from REACTING and start CHOOSING MY RESPONSE.
Otherwise I will wear this dull expression and shut down emotionally. I am not able to connect to others and no one is on my side. I feel isolated, alone and miserable. This is the side of anger turned in.
To me doing this in a SLOW CLOTH METHOD IS A MEDITATION.
I am a rather deep thinker and doing these kinds of cloth are the kinds of conversations that I would like to have with a human...but it is so hard to get on that level because we lack time. But I desire, crave and delight when something has come up from the well that is really SPIRITUAL in nature, to me anyway.
I really feel it is a gift to me, to show me THE WAY.